I feel like I should apologize and explain my absence of late. I first want to say thank you to all of you who have expressed concern for me and those who have sent me well wishes.
I have been struggling with family and personal health concerns since February when my Grandpa fell and required surgery. It has been a long process of healing for him and an added stress on those of us who love him. He is doing much better, unfortunately though he will have some lasting complications from his fall and is no longer able to live on his own.
I have also been struggling with some personal health changes that I have honestly gone back and forth on what and how much to share. In the end, I have decided it would be therapeutic for me to share some minor details and how those have affected me. Maybe it will help one of you too.
At the beginning of March, I found out I was pregnant. I had some pretty major morning sickness and pregnancy fatigue. With that coupled with my grandpa I didn’t have a lot of energy to blog and do social media. A couple of weeks ago I went in for my 12-week checkup and they could not find the heartbeat, we scheduled an ultrasound and it was confirmed that there was no heartbeat so we had to schedule a D&C to remove the fetus. It has been a difficult couple of weeks to say the least, but I can’t tell you how much I appreciate my family and friends.
I have received so much love and support it has made all of the difference in the world to me. Family members fasting, a special blessing from my Bishop, prayers from friends and the love from my Heavenly Father have all helped me through a difficult time.
With the pregnancy and my fair share of emotional eating these last few weeks, let’s just say my clothes don’t fit they way I would like them to. I know many have told me don’t worry about that, give yourself some time, it is to be expected, etc. However, I know that not taking care of myself is not going to help me feel better. I know that continuing down this path will only make me feel worse. I am ready to start the healing process both physically and emotionally.
I have decided to work on some weight loss meal plans to help me get back on track. I have not completed them yet, honestly it is still hard to focus on things like that but I am working really hard on finishing them for myself personally. I would like to make them available to you as well, especially for those of you who might be struggling with weight loss. I’ll do my best to get them completed and will let you know when they are ready.
Thank you again for being patient with me, my absence and any future inconsistencies on my part.
I appreciate you!